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three weeks…


it’s been 3 weeks now since we received the eviction notice from our landlord. 120 days to vacate and no reason given…after 14 years our “home” is no longer, and with baby only 2 weeks away the timing honestly could not have been worse!

maternity leave has been filled with hours of online house hunting, inspections, applications and the harsh reality that renting in Melbourne is much more difficult now than it was 14 years ago!

Finding (and maintaining) a sense of calm has been a near impossibility for me – especially as I’m not he calmest of souls to begin with.

I want to embrace change – hell, I’m about to become a mother! My entire life is about to change! But having change forced upon you, and not on your terms…that’s a lot harder to accept/digest.

So it’s now going to be a whole new fresh start! Not even a new chapter but a whole damn new book! New baby, new family life, new home…once we find something that is.

How does one manage not to become completely attached to a place upon seeing it? Envisioning your new life there, imaging where the cot will go and how you’ll finally have a place in the kitchen for more than just a coffee machine (whose current home has been on the sink, may i add!) this is something I’ve always struggled with, but now with all the extra pregnancy hormones surging through my body, my emotions are on tender hooks.

I’ve shed so many tears over this (and other issues – when it rains it pours folks!) – some rational and other completely irrational. I know we’re not going to end up homeless, but the lack or certainty and security has been difficult to process.

My urge to nest has completely evaporated! I had only just started on Tuesday – day 2 of my maternity leave – with the arrival of baby’s cot. We pulled our room apart in anticipation, constructed the cot…and then the next day the eviction notice hit me like a truck. 

I’ve been functioning in slow motion ever since. I know that a part of me was hoping that by some miracle we would find a place straight away, move everything over and start our new life there – welcoming baby into his brand new home while feeling happy and settled…Of course I now realise that was a dream of sorts, a wonderful (and very wishful) fantasy.

I’m 38weeks pregnant. There are piles of half sorted baby clothes all over our house, along with half finished tasks and piles of dis/organised chaos.

I’m trying hard to flick that switch – to re-engage the nesting and get back to calming the storm within, preparing myself for all that is to come.

But I’m struggling. A lot.

I have such a wonderful support network of family and friends, but I’ve been keeping my words closely guarded for far too long. This is (or at least, should be) one of the happiest times of our life, but I haven’t felt like I’ve been able to fully let go and enjoy all of the joyful moments.

Yes – life is filled with challenges. Things change – people, places, situations…You can’t control it, no matter how hard you try, but you can control how you react to it (aparently! Hah! I’m a work in progress guys!). I’m trying to get back to the place I was before all of this – preparing our home (and minds) for baby, getting ready to welcome him into this world and having a warm and loving homewaiting for him.

We managed to extend our stay here an additional 2 months, so we have a little more time, but it’s been hard to switch my mind into making this feel like home again. It’s been all I’ve known for my entire life in Melbourne – my entire adult life for that matter!

I still feel like I’ve had the rug pulled out from under me, like this is all a bad dream. The security I’ve always felt is gone but I have to focus on the positives. We’re getting a brand new start. Home is wherever we are together – no matter where that will be. I know we can make this work, I just need to shake off the feelings of helplessness. There is always a lot that is out of our control, but we’ll get there in the end…

x

travel

three weeks and counting


the moment we’ve been waiting for is almost here! This month we’re heading back to Japan for 10 glorious days and I couldn’t be more excited! 

We’re spending the most of our time in Tokyo, but we’ve decided on a quick side trip to Kyoto, since we haven’t been there since our first visit many years ago! 

Our to-do list has been growing solidly, but at the same time we’re looking forward to having the ability to just immerse ourselves in our surroundings. Our hotel has bike hire available (and the tastiest coffee and pastries on offer for breakfast!), and a day of wandering through Ueno Park, eating all the tasty foods and going in the swan boats by the lake have swooning hard!

Not to mention being able to stock up on all of my journal refills and other assorted stationery at the travelers factory! And Tokyo Disneyland?!! Ahhhh!











I cannot wait to be there! 3 weeks and counting friends

x

food monday lists tiny homes

Coffee Flavoured Doughnuts And Lynch

All has been revealed!

After a week of eluding to something big coming our way, the PlayingLynch.com countdown hit zero, announcing the release of Psychogenic Fugue – a 20 min movie in which John Malkovich plays David Lynch and 7 other Lynch themed movie characters! You can watch it via a donation to the David Lynch Foundation, and with Log Lady being one of the characters portrayed (yes!!) I can’t wait to get home and watch it!

Do you remember these beaded daisy chain necklaces? My friend mentioned wanting stacks and stacks of long 90s style beaded necklaces and it took me back to my teen years of obsessively making these necklaces and bracelets with friends.
Anyway – she has requested that I make her one (some?), so now I’m scouring the net for a simple tutorial – it has been quite a number of years since I last gave it a go! This one here looks like the best so far, so I’ll have to find some beads and see how I go.

You know my love of doughnuts right? This recipe from Gather Journal is my dream! Coffee infused donuts?! Ahhh dreamland! Can someone please make them for me? Pretty please? I’ve had plans to bake cookies for the past 2 weeks now, but I’ve just ended up slowly(ish) eating the bag of smarties that were set to be their “decoration” haha πŸ˜‰

Vista Tiny homes have released a new model – the Vista Go – which is priced at under $40k! It’s even more compact, but still in the incredible vista style! It’s got me wanting to move to the USA and spend my days roaming the country!

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After the tears

I’ve struggled so much with writing this post – the photos were uploaded instantly, but the words managed to elude me. I’ve spent countless hours staring at a blank screen, writing and scribbling out drafts that spiralled into a rambling mess of confused words and general nonsense…and I think I may have just figured out why.

You see – the main purpose of this night (apart from having a date night) was to see the new Nick Cave movie One More Night with Feeling, and after looking forward to it for such a long time, I left feeling quite empty. I’m not even sure if that’s the right word…
Watching it made me feel uncomfortable, agitated even, and i still can’t seem to adequately put my thoughts and feelings into words.

It is definitely very moving, visually stunning and the soundtrack (the Skeleton Tree album that was released the next day) has grown on me increasingly, to the point that it is now one of my favourites.

I did not enjoy the parts where the director was involved – interviewing or just inserting himself into the story. It felt intrusive and grated on me so much that I struggled to let it go. Maybe that has a lot to do with how I feel – or my general confusion about how I feel about the movie. I felt the director was exploiting the tragedy that had occurred and therefore watching it felt wrong…

At the moment that’s about as much sense as I can make of all of it.

this photo of me and my crazy eyes actually portrays my current confusion and inability to put my thoughts and feelings into words…

We had dinner first at After the Tears in Elsternwick, and after hearing so many wonderful things about the food we decided to order many small plates to share. Potato blintzes, pierogi, schnitzels and lamb croquettes (which are not pictured because we were gluttons and ordered more after haha)

We also broke our alcohol ban because their menu had more alcohol than food! Plus sparkling and violet?!! How could I resist!

My forever favourite dinner date β™₯

It was my first time at the Classic Cinem and I kind of kicked myself for not discovering it earlier! It’s one of the closest cinemas to me and their menu alone is amazing!

We had more drinks (hey – once we broke our ban…) followed by a giant popcorn, soda and a rocky road choc top for me – because yay! I am a child! Haha i did manage to forget I put it in my bag until an hour into the show…so that was interesting! Still delicious, even though the ice cream was rather liquified.

So there it is – my confusing thoughts on the Nick Cave movie, and photos of the tastiest meal I’ve had in a while!

Did anyone else see One More Time with Feeling? What were your thoughts?

x

monday lists

Twin peaks, hello sydney! and breakfast machines of my dreams

My weekly list was a bit delayed this week, but thankfully it ended up timing perfectly with this news…


David Lynch is hinting at something being unveiled on September 27th and i’m so fricken excited!!!! β™₯ β™₯ β™₯
I seriously clicked on every single one of these links (and then spent way too long moving the mouse over the numbers here haha), and it only increased my joy of what is to come!
Just give me coffee, donuts and tell me all of the secrets please! πŸ˜‰

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Megan Mckean from Mckean Studios has a brand new book being released called Hello Sydney! and it looks so cute! As stated over on their website:

Hello Sydney! is both a visual and educational treat for children aged 3-6 years. Sydneysiders or visitors to Sydney will love this illustrative and playful celebration of one of Australia’s great cities

Their new Sydney range has also been released, with brooches, scarves, bangles and prints too! I’ve got three of their city bangles (San Fran, Palm Springs and Tokyo) and their cute cactus and martini brooches and I love them! the book is available for pre-order over here.

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Apartment Therapy wrote an article on “Breakfast Machines that really actually exist’ and number one is my new breakfast dream! β™₯
The Nostalgia 3-in-1 family size breakfast station makes your coffee, toast and has a cooktop to fry your bacon and eggs! umm..?!! yes please!! It would be absolutely perfect in a tiny home too (can I ever not refer things back to tiny homes? haha probably not) plus it’s also adorably retro! Now if only there was a waffle making component in there too… πŸ˜‰

I hope everyone is having a wonderful week. If you need me I’ll just be here, staring at the playinglynch website and watching as that clock keeps ticking down!
x

celebrations

Jadey and Tim

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It’s been six months to the day since my sweet friends Jadey and Tim got married (woohoo!) and their wedding was recently featured on the Vintage Bride Magazine blog β™₯

The photos are beautiful, as was the day itself, with an ice cream van rolling up after the ceremony and a reception filled with music played by the Galaxy of Stars Revue (aka the bride, the groom and their friends!) – it honestly felt like I had stepped into a scene from a ridiculously cool movie! the vibe was electric – the room hummed with a crazy intense energy and as cliche as it sounds, you could definitely feel the love in the room.

I was so honoured to be a bridesmaid and be able to stand up beside one of my oldest and dearest friends as she and Tim embarked on this new chapter in their lives β™₯ I was definitely feeling all the feels and I spent the entire day beaming and/or crying – usually a strange combination of both!
Note that somehow my makeup stayed on my face! no touch ups necessary and boy did I test it all out! (so many happy tears! ♥) way to go makeup magicians!

Such a beautiful day to celebrate such a wonderful couple!
Happy 6 month anniversary guys ♥
love you long time
x

top photo: Studio Something/ bridesmaid photo: Bree de Rome
bridesmaid dresses: Fabled & True

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Weekend in photos


I’m not lying when I say our weekends always start like this. Every day starts with coffee, but weekdays are usually just nespresso lattes in bed (maybe…)

I bought this gorgeous book on the language of flowers mainly due to its cover, but it wasn’t necessary to decode what my tulips were telling me. Namely “we’re dead lady! Replace us please!” hehe

Mike bought me this sparkling rose moscato and it was an almost too tasty! Just give me all of the pink things and I will be happy (true story)

Penny from Sly Pony made me a mini resin planter and it is an absolute dream!!! My crazy face doesn’t even show just how excited I was when I saw this!

She completely spoiled me with all these belated birthday gifts over the weekend – the custom planter, bangles, studs, donut earrings and this gorgeous pink happiness planner by Brand Mentalist. I’m not going to lie, I’m a little nervous about filling it out – it’s so indepth and I’m not exactly the best at goal setting (or being organised and focused..!), so it will be a challenge, but one that I’m pretty excited to tackle. Let my 100 days to happiness begin!

These blossoms are in full bloom and I adore them! I’ve always dreamt of living in a tiny cottage with cherry blossoms in the front and apple and pear trees out the back…total dream ♥

What did your weekend look like?
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fashion outfits vintage

Spring sprang sprung


We did it! Melbourne gave us a whole two (and a half!) days of sunny, warm, beautiful Spring weather…before disappearing as quickly as it arrived. But ohh how lovely it was while it lasted!
I managed to bust out two of my new vintage dresses – my blue gingham wrap dress from Gypsy Goth Vintage as well as a summery pink floral dress i picked up from Yesterday People, and I was as happy as could be β™₯

Winter has had me wearing the same dresses over and over again and I just can’t wait for bare legs and an endless supply of vintage pretties to parade around in.

I’m so excited that I may have purchased another couple of pretties for my collection! β™₯ β™₯ eeee somebody please stop me already (but actually don’t because YAY cute new vintage dresses!!) I know I said that i’m buying these to ‘replace’ the older dresses in my collection, but who am I kidding! It’s more so that I can rotate all of them β™₯ vintage dress hoarder right here. πŸ˜‰

So please, come on down Spring! we’re so ready for you.
x

Me monday lists

Busy weeks and weddings pics

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Happy 3 1/2 year anniversary Mikey! ❀️
(haha any excuse to post one of my fave pics of us, right?!)

and yes – i know! we don’t actually celebrate our half year anniversaries, but it’s today and I came across this photo of me almost flashing out the front of City Hall, so here we are πŸ™‚

We’ve got such a busy week ahead of us and somehow the weather is meant to be somewhat spring-like! (Well, for 3 days at least!) fingers crossed! I might even be able to bust out a few of my new vintage dresses along with my unbearably pale legs! Haha please be kind Melbourne!

Wednesday night we have dinner plans with friends we haven’t seen since before we got married (see! Tying in the wedding pic to the post! πŸ˜‰ haha), so we’ve definitely got loads to catch up on there!

Then Thursday we’re heading out for dinner and a movie – namely to see the new Nick Cave film One More Time With Feeling. It’s showing at 9pm at a whole host of cinemas all over the country (and world even!), before his new album Skeleton Tree drops tomorrow and it’s bound to stir up the emotions! I’m packing a box of tissues just in case (I have a habit of crying at everything!)

Friday night is burger night (one of my favourite traditions!), while Saturday and Sunday are going to be slow lazy days filled wth brunch and coffe dates – my favourite! ❀️

I know it doesn’t seem that busy to most, but I’m a total homebody – especially on weeknights! I work Monday to Friday and after work it’s straight home for dinner – it’s a habit I find hard to break. While I would love to be spontaneous, weeknights are sacred home-time to me ♥ In saying that, i’m definitely looking forward to the break in routine. You’ve got to stir things up every now and then.

Alright, let’s get this week started!

x

Me Seasons

slow down


And somehow it’s September…

While I’m sad to say farewell to my birthday month, I’m definitely glad to see the end of this horrible back pain! This past week and a half has definitely tested my patience, and also taught me that I need to learn to slow (and calm) down.
I’ve always known it’s not one of my strong points, but I never realised just how difficult it is for me to relax! What’s with that?!

I’m my own worst critic, always, and I find a way to overanalyse anything and everything! There’s nothing like being stuck in bed to show you your complete lack of patience. (case in point – right after doing my back in I walked to work! I missed the bus and instead of just calling in sick, I struggled through to get there, only to be rightfully sent home! So stubborn!)

So for September I want to learn to slow down a little (a lot?), take a deep breath, stop overanalysing and just be and live more in the moment…
Definitely not too much to ask, right?

Happy first few days of Spring (or Fall for my friends up north!)

Today is for coffee and donuts and fresh flowers from the farmers market (always!) ♥

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